Monday, 2 April 2012

Insan Bernama Kekasih..



      Pernah rasa x??
      suram Xrasanya bila kita menanti dgn pnuh harapan.....tp hasil yg Xmemberansangkan
      =>Sakit
      =>Teruk
      =>Seseorang
      =>Istimewa..
      =>Kelmarin....
      =>tidak dikehendaki/diikuti....

      "Sakitnyer hati, msg awek tp xbls", rungutan dlm diam seorang lelaki.
      1minit
      5minit
      10minit
      30minit
      Kejap2 ter-tengok2 henset berdering ke x kat atas katil tu...walaupun busy nie...
      rasanya....setiap kali nk msg, masa tu jelah free....tp masih menunggu..bersangka baik..
      ''xpelah busy laa kowt...mungkin besok nk kene bangun pagi...paham...", diari seorang lelaki..

      Seseorang....hmm
      banyak nk dimention-kan nie....
      *kawan sek lama,
      *kawan stu tempat study...
      *kawan stu tempat kerja...
      *kawan makan kawan...
      *bekas teman seperjuangan yg lame...
   
     
      Percayalah...          
      it is sound clear..??
      it doesn't...it is??
      Dahulumya.....rasanya mcm cinta monyet...
      tp cuba berdalih utk menjalin lebih dari itu...
      Sakitnyer hati bila, Dapat Menduga soalan yg Bakal Meremukkn Hati...
      text xdibalas kemudiannya...
      Cuba menjadi Insan yg lebih baik...Perbaiki diri..
      mengenal siapa 'orang' dan perangai 'orang' di dunia 'orang'...buat diri Membuka mata
      ttg kisah yg lalu...
      tinggal kisah DULU2 hampir genap dua sem...layanlah seorang sendiri...ape yg Drasa sblm nie..in
      between...dpt dicerna dengan baik...Alhamdulillah...

      Sem 3...Hidup di sbgai Dip di alam elektrik..rata2 banyak gler lelaki...nmpk perempuan pown
      sorang dua jer..
      Lupa pasal perempuan2 dan kisah yg lame dengan rasa Hidup Bujang sbgai lelaki....
      HangOut, OverNight, Hiking, camping...jd boys scout...
      xpikir langsung pasal bab2 perempuan nih....rasanya Dah xder Feel
      laa kowt...sbb pernah dikecewakan...
      As a reason...I Didn't clear my statement on what she thought she want it to be...
      Thus my last words were meant Meaningless line's to be keep for it...

                  

      and that was over a year ago..didn't make-up quiet clear those things....
      As it was over the line to think of...she call in heavy rain...
      There are a few option I made up:
      * Ignore~ (didnt take the call ever)or
      * Helping as a friends...

      and i choose option two....
      i'll try not to be persuasive...even though the old film was no longer capture the moments...
      help her just to remind....
      i'll make myself clear...
      it is Just about You....care to You or just be Plain Face to tell sorry....
      Mengenangkan nasib seorang hamba ditimpa bala....harus Delakkan, pesan orang tua...
      Dtanyakan blk soalan berupa pertolongaN...n I see their friends do not take care like it was
      nothings..Sikit2 punya hal...akhirnya merana seorang diri...
      Hendaknya berkawan biarlah ia jdi kenangan di waktu kita berjauhan...sedap memikirkan...
      mcm mane seorang sahabt berpindah jauh dri tanah air...masih merindui shabat di tanah airnya
      itu....bkn KEEP IN TOUCH...tetapi kenangan yg ade bersama..


           

      Sama2 jahat...sama2 duka....sama kne maki hamun....itu yg patut dikatakan shbat...
      biarlah xder rupa..tp sama2 membantu..

                  
   
      my file were recorded in 31/July/2010....do ever remember HOW was it happen??
      let it through....experience is the best teacher...what come over me and her future then...
      it was a gift..after all
   
      Kisah ttg SESEORANG....wallahualam

      Next is....iStimeWA??
      dh jd tunggang langgang pun msih dianggap Istimewa ker??
      huh??
      Pelik dilayan Istilah istimewa nie..madah bercinta...Masing2 punyer kentut pon bleh kte Wangi..
      ape Celop....??
   
      ape yg boleh diungkapkan disini adelah....
          "There are one in million of one of the kind that I like about You..."

      people rather say you'RE pretty...kind....n Other Gud thingS.. but i see many of that...
      what makes the person so special is what that had for themselves over to Our likings..google~!!
      Lebih Istimewa lagi jika dpt dikongsi bersama pd mse yg sama, in a different ways...(y)

     rather by hook or by crook...Istimewa menjadi tautan bila daku menerima ianya semula...
     xsanggup nk lepaskan sesuatu yg manis dan tidak menghargai sesebuah kemanisannya itu..
     huhu..

     Keep Looking....
     tp msih xsama....berkwan tp msih xberkenan....dan mengelak menjadi tabiat klo mmg rse dh
     xske....huhu.......
     Jika rasa nk bersama....hargailah yg ada....
   
     Kelmarin...
     kisah semalam mcm2 timbul persoalan...
     apakah terlalu busy??
     adakah terlalu letih??
     adakah menjauhkan diri..
     sihat ker??
     macam mner kejer??
     ade yg mengorat ker??
     mcm2lah...

             
   
      hoping for a better looked....called her...
      happy sound....does she??
      im glad ur are epy...with works and hangout with friends..
   
      fb....sometimes.
      we take it when we were happy,
      sometime not epy day to open, but open jgak...release tension ktenyer
      but sometimes we take it in a bad mood as it turns to => Tension tibe2, marah xsmene,
      rajuok tbe2..
      but sometimes it follows with a question mark...
      *Potentially thinking it was a BAD question to whom the post is care...  last time i check

           are the most Weaponize to kill
       relations..
       and i'll leave with a quote..." "not epy n impress at all.." "
       oleh yg demikian....
       biarlah ia menjadi rahsia Dantara hubungan tersebut....
       jika nk tau lebih lanjut.....can't wait to see u in reply.....

       TIDAK DIKEHENDAKI...@ DI ikuti...
       stu jer sy pesan "Pilihlah jalan kemahuan merubah diri untuk menjadi yang lebih baik",
       I'm not taking u for granted for over past relations n problem happen between us...
       i've redeem myself for what i just lost...
       for the second time....If this long relationship still doesn't work.....it mean Worthless...
       if its best to think that way...
       Just give u'r answer very specificly....as if u want to remove Me....
       please let it be the Last Worth words to say like the reader's
       dying n I'll pretend not to be on this world anymore...
       and don't Ever look for it up Again....-case close-

       Diikutkan hati....
       Jgn takut dengan kemahuan diri....Be urself....Being like a Demand...I've already demands...
       Did u do it?? hve u complish It??
       sy akn tunggu jawapan...
   
     
       bagi sy
       Ada banyak perkara yg saya xtau mengenai awk.....dan awk satu-satunya yg membuat sy
       menjadi lebih ke depan...bermacam-macam perkara yang sy lakukan dan dugaan sy terima
       hanya disebabkan persediaan sy utk menerima awk seadanya di dlm hati saya.....Sy xmau
       jika hubungan berbalas disebbakn trhutang budi..sy xmau sy menjadi penghalang awk untuk
       berjaya....Sy mahu kenali diri awk dengan lebih mendalam jika awk izinkan...Sy sedar sy
       xpandai dan xberupa dan xberapa memahami...cukuplah rsenyer, jika ini luahan yg awk pinta
       ....sy ajukan....jika ade dimata awk yg lebih baik...
       Hendaknya Terima secara RedHa...Jodoh ditangan Tuhan...Yg xbaik itu bersebab....yg baik itu
       ade Hikmahnya....sme jekan...sinonimkan dengan perkataan lain...wallahualam....oyasumi...
       jge lpe bsuh kaki...amalan yg bersih...
                          Penuhilah masa dengan seseorang yg sudi
                                                                                            bertandang ke hati xkire waktu..

3 comments:

  1. woihh ! apehal sedih sangat post kau ni. alahai.
    i faced the same problem like you. same. aku pun kena macam kau la sepupu. :'(

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  2. xderlahh....best kowt wat blog nie...heee~~
    nothing happen laa.....hahahah~~
    Reminder jer...wee~~

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